immaculate vibes

Unsure of when this switch happened, it's been percolating for a while - but as someone who used to be obsessed with learning and understanding and finding the answers - these days, I'm so much more oriented around how things feel. It's like the knob on my inner GPS was turned from research to resonance, from education to energetics.

Maybe it's what happens when you finally realize, once and for all, that no matter how much knowledge you have, you still can't control the unfolding of life. Or that truth is a spectrum - a very personal one, at that. Or that certainty (or the illusion of certainty) doesn't keep you safe.

I've reached a point where I can finally trust how I feel without understanding why I'm feeling it (though the understanding usually inevitably reveals itself later). I don't need to justify or explain things that I just simply know - I can trust them instead. This way of moving through life feels so much more natural to me. If everything is energy, then it seems like it should be instinctive that energy should guide us.

I was laughing this morning while I was halfway through a podcast that I listen to regularly. I noticed how good I felt, and simultaneously noticed that I wasn't even carefully listening to the content of what was being said. I realized that I rarely retain what's covered in these particular episodes - but that I actually tune in because of how I feel while it's on. I guess I'm mostly a fan of the energetic transmission, the immaculate vibes - because you can feel that all of it just comes straight from the heart (a universal love language, if you ask me).

I loved that realization, and as it dawned on me, a stream of other experiences popped up and said, "that's why you're drawn to me, too!" Right on. How cool. How vibey. It feels so good to loosen the death grip on knowing everything. It feels so right to follow my natural flow.

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